Letters to Cupcake... & Looking Back

Flashback to July 2nd, this is a little letter I wrote in my phone to Baby as soon as I found out!!

Monday July 2, 2012 7:25 pm
Hi Cupcake,
I just found out today (1 1/2) hours ago that I am pregnant! I was (to save myself from sadness) expecting a negative urine test at the Dr.'s office. When she came in and told me it's positive and about 7weeks 5 days along, the first thing I thought of was you and what you looked like in my womb. This is such a happy surprise. I knew my body has been acting different the last week. Your daddy and I just got back from celebrating 4 years together at Cave Creek Resort this last weekend. It was hard to enjoy because all I wanted to do was sleep, then we were going to take the boat to the lake on our way home and the boat was acting up (I was kind of glad because I just wanted to sleep), we headed home and I slept ALL afternoon. Now I know why:) I haven't been hungry, sensitive to smell, extremely tired, dizzy, scatter brained. I will go through any torture of gagging, throwing up, feeling sick just to feed you and make sure you are getting everything you need. It hasn't sunk in completely but I feel like God just stretched my heart quite a bit today w/ extra room for lots love for you. I cried of excitement and utter shock when she told me "well in fact it is positive". She said me and your daddy get to see you in two weeks and possibly get to hear your little heartbeat! I can't wait....until then.
Love and excitement,
Your happy mama

(Corey wasn't w/ me since I was originally going for a routine yearly check up anyway so i was going to tell him when i got home. He wasn't there when I got home and I couldnt wait until then, so I had to tell him over the phone!)

(Sorry for the 'too much info' photo, but this picture means a lot to me). I may have been skeptical, but I wasn't sure if this was a 'faint positive' or a negative because one line was a lot darker. I needed others' sets of eyes (and google) for their opinions! This was Monday AM, looking back I took the same test on Thursday and (I'm pretty sure) the results were the same but I ignored it because I thought it had to be a BRIGHT +.  Come to find out any +  IS a +!!

Cupcake was already 7 weeks tiny and we didn't even know it:)

Craig's List Beauty

I was browsing Craig's List and I came upon this treasure! It was listed under kitchen tables, but as soon as I saw it lights turned on in my head. It was an antique record player cabinet. I envisioned this to use as a changing table! We went to look at it and it was cuter in person. Brought it home, headed to the craft store, and cleaned it up a little. After a little TLC I love love love this antique, shabby, vintage dainty piece of furniture that we will use as her changing table. It is a very faint pink, so faint it pretty much looks beige to me. It's versatile so we can use it for anything after. Here are the before and after touches..

                                               

Halfway There!

Friday 9/28 marked 20 weeks! Aka 5 months! I can't believe I'm halfway there. This is experience is so surreal, but I know it will be even better when she is here! Let's see, not much has changed since the last couple months except I now officially have a consistent belly. Finally! I say consistent because when I thought I had one, I would wake up in the morning and it would be gone haha! It's only noticeable in tight clothes and if you didn't know me you would never know I was pregnant (thats what people are telling me at least). I'm glad she finally made her appearance in our eyes though!
20 week happenings:
-So far I have gained about 4-5 lbs.
-No food aversions, just some chicken. Depends what it looks like!
-I usually eat about every half hour or else I start to get really bad hunger pangs and start to feel sick. It's like starving x 10! I even wake up around 4 or 5 am with a very hungry feeling so I have to keep a little snack bedside:) (I warned Corey if he hears a Nutri-Grain wrapper in the middle of the night it's not a mouse haha!)
-We 95% sure have a name picked out for Baby Cupcake
-Not really any food cravings, but I do eat a lot of pumpkin stuff and lemon on everything. I've always eaten that stuff though!
-No sickness thank God. Lots of energy! I feel like I'm already nesting. I have been a MAJOR clean FREAK around the house. Cleaning and organizing are on the daily lately!
-I'm still waiting for that pregnancy "glow" that everyone talks about. People may say otherwise, but I feel like since day one I've been really pale, blotchy, and get breakouts! They say if it's a girl she steals your "beauty". My instincts told me from the get go that she was a girl:)
Baby:
-When I look at her at work via ultrasound she has gotten so big that I can no longer get her whole body in one image like some pictures I have posted. I usually just get a head, foot, thigh, lower leg, arm..It's really cute though! I'm glad I get to see and hear her heart pumping away. She's so precious!
-Appx 6-7". I've read the size of a banana or a mango.
-Her own uterus & ovaries are completely developed!
-She has a protective coating (vernix) to prevent her from being water logged and also accidentally scratching herself with her fingernails.
-She can hear loud & familiar noises outside the womb, but also noises inside such as my heartbeat, digestion, etc
-She's been moving a lot while I've been writing this-She knows I'm talking about her:)
                      

             

Love Taps

Last week, at 19 weeks, I felt her! I can't say it was the first time because I've felt those little "taps" (spasm feeling), but I wasn't able to pin point it as being her for sure. When I kept noticing it consistently, while laying down, and especially about a half hour after eating I knew it was her! If my hands are resting on my lower belly I can actually feel the "thump" on my hands. It's a crazy feeling, but so sweet!